End of first year.

So, I have completed my first year of uni. I unlike my fellow students do not want to fill my body with alcohol, I want to relax. I am tired of the pressure of being anything. I want to live inside an apartment that is all mine and not worry about anyone telling me what to do. If I could stop the sun from rising so I could have endless night for a month I would. 


To have no interruptions, just blissful silence.. I want to long for the sun, long for life and excitement. I currently just want everything on pause. I don't want to age anymore or hear problems of others, of those suffering in other parts of the world. I want a precious moment that breathes into my heart.... "peace"... to hear the quietness of a safe room with soft bed sheets and soft twinkly light from fairy lights whispering to me.... "peace Rita Mae... all is well" ... and have those soft words wrap around me like the warmest of blankets followed by thoughts of magic... Of fantastic places, floating in to kiss my forehead and gift me with good dreams. 


I hope one day I become an author, that many will read my words and feel comfort. I was always unable to express the way I felt to others when I was younger and thus, my books as a child were my friends. I went to an old book store recently and the smell of old books was welcoming. The books all seem to be standing at attention for me to caress and open them. The pages were thin and yellowed, there was evidence others who had kept them as friends had scrawled thoughts upon the pages. I must go for now my dears... 


kisses for those wanting to dream beyond the pages of their life.

its not a house but a h♥me...

Rad birdhouses.. 

They're asking $675 for these houses, built by Luke Bartel and painted by Jeff Canham. These pics and info are from here.

My wish: to have cute little bird houses in my trees occupied by equally cute birds.. crows need not apply ♥ 

stationary l♥ve...

I would die without fun organisational treats, when presented with functional sweet stationary I honestly have a crisis whether to buy and use the stationary or treasure it...

The save bookmark.

this lovely came from stilsucht.com

Paper organisers
(there is no muchier thing on earth)

Officeworks expanding file for receipts, notecards, documents. beauty. Comes in pink, blue and red soft as the cover is cloth. approx $28.

Index stickers

Ok, cute little index stickers so your favourite books have little friends guiding you where your favourite pages are :o) These come from cotton candy island a Singaporean shop that sells cute everything!

I will be adding more cute stationary I come across!

My wish: to open an adorable stationary shop in a cute tucked away street in Melbourne. The walls will be thick pinstriped and the shelves on the walls light paneled wood, the shop assistant will be quirky and wear an apron over whatever quirky outfit she wears! There would be felt tip pens, journals to suit any need or want, all sizes of expandable organisers!

a-musings...

                                                               

                               

all images from here. cutest website! gotopublicschool.com

My wish: there were more clever images like this.

dark sexuality.. ♥ Marina Bychkova.

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How to have a dark sexuality?.. Marina Bychkova creates beautiful pieces of artwork, with such detail.. These dolls with their looks of far away sadness and childlike innocence, inspire magnificent tales.. ♥

My wish: to possess a tiny amount of the ethereal beauty these dolls have. Kisses for now, dear readers ♥ ♥ ♥

solar waterfall for 2016 olympics

Breathtaking.. these photos were taken from likecool.com

This is a solar powered waterfall standing 105m above sea level, designed by Swiss architecture firm RAFAA for 2016 Olympic Games.

Solar City Tower.. RAFAA expect to fill the building with an amphitheater, auditorium, cafeteria and shops. This solar city tower even includes bungee jumping and a “glass sky walk” on the very top.

Look close there's someone bungee jumping in the pic.

My wish: To be able to go once this is complete and explore this architectural wonder.

To sleep, perchance to dream..

I have been deciding, what I consider important...
my soul..
safety..
love?

Would achieving safety, true love, faith actually make me feel better?

With so many thoughts that seem to surround me like fog, I fear I will disappear and be consumed; all anyone will see is the "thought fog" that smothered me...

I have begun to feel the only peace my soul gets from my constant nagging of where to find happiness is when I am falling asleep... When the lights are out and I feel the warmth radiating off my lover, as I drift into slumber, he makes me feel safe, loved...

As a child one of my favourite films were "Hook" "Peter Pan", the fantasy of Never Never Land was inspiring. No rules, no parents, all adults were pirates, an elfin wild boy flys into your window and under the blanket of night steals you away .. As I have aged, and watched it countless times I'm more drawn to the clarity of a child's thought, how it is never too late to realise what you have turned into is not ok, that if you have fear, to be strong you must conquer it.. that to believe and live are awfully big adventures. Above all else the fact, Tinkerbell will forever have unrequited love for Peter Pan...

"You know that place between sleep and awake? That place where you still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you.. Peter Pan.. that's where I'll be waiting.." Tinkerbell.

My wish: all will sleep safe tonight.. xoxo ♥♥♥